12-19-2020

I was the bad guy last night, yet again. I wake up late, its sort of my routine at this point. At this point, not to sound redundant, she wants me to regulate my life around hers so we can talk. I can talk, I wake up at 2:30 and she's already mad. I text her during work, she is sort of happy, mostly not. She can play roblox and among us, but my minecraft is too much. I feel like she's mad at [Redacted] now since she said "and you build all these things that i never get to see". She's never asked to see. And i don't recall her ever. Showing an intro in the game. I'm sure there may of been a time that she will gladly bring up. I think. She thinks that I'm playing for [Redacted] and not for the game but she doesn't want to voice that. I think that she always been second or like not put first, she thinks if shes not like immediate priority then people are against her. Big shows of this are with her friends anyways, this is really pushing me.