3-14-2021

A few days away from my birthday, all I'm thinking about is how I've wasted my life and the resources of those around me. I had a plan to not be here at the age of 18. Now I'm 22 and I'm still throwing my life away. I'm not pursuing any fields, just selling dildos at a dead end job. What am I working toward. What are my goals, who am I, what happened to me.

I have no idea of who I am, want to be, or anything remotely close. I feel like I'm running out of time. I feel like everything I have i don't deserve I feel like I'm not worthy of anyone. I don't know why [Redacted] is trying to push us so much. I'm a huge asshole. I am, why does anyone like me. I'm genuinely confused. 

I hate myself

so much

make me happy -

pls.