9-30-2020
A lot of things have been troubling my mind, but I just haven't been writing any down.
Lately I feel that people don't genuinely enjoy my company.
I'm not sure why. Well I feel like its bc people are always flaking on me when I haven't done anything bad. Maybe I'm not good enough. I can't tell anyone that though because then I feel like I'm asking them to hand out with me. I don't want any pity hang outs or anything. These people are [Redacted] friends not mine. They have no obligation to me. I just wish I had my own friends that I can hang with & talk to, or play games with. They can shower me with compliments and all but if I don't see them doing anything, then how am I to believe them or perhaps my mind is working against me. I'm going to stop since my hand hurts now.