Night After Night 2-5-2021

Work is going to be happening soon, allegedly. If it doesn't thought what am I to do? Should I call unemployment and confront them about the lack of funds I've recieved. Also, could I live off the money from the school? Maybe extreme brigdets (?) I need to focus on myself. If I need to go to Washington, maybe it's best. 

I have goals I want to obtain and only I'm going to make that happen. I really have to put my future into my own hands. Fluently writing in cursive has gotten very easy now, it still needs work though. 

I do feel numb indeed. I want it to stop. hopefully [Redacted] can provide some help & clarity. 

Everyday I'm wondering if I need to pursue everything alone.